A Magnanimous Man

Real generosity toward the future lies in giving all to the present.-- Albert Camus

Or does it?

We don't have a plan...

You can't have plans. You can't have that image of the future which is all you see. If you do that then you lose your reason and every action you take is solely to achieve that image. Often time that image is pure and beautiful but in all likely hood it will lead you astray, and just as often the image before your waking eyes is just as beautiful. This life is not in our hands but rather, in the hands of He who made it. It's not for us to decide what the future will hold. If you always have plans then, more or less, you will always end up being disappointed.

That is what I believe has happened to The White Knight. He has had a vision in his mind of the life he wants to have. Yet I wonder if it's leading him astray. He has been so blinded by it that it caused him not only to loose his usual stubborn reason but also to neglect the reason of others.

Now I'm not saying not to dream or not to hope, just don't let your hopes and dreams cloud your mind until that dream is all that is left for you to see. By all means let you dreams soar, let your hopes never die, but don't be to busy starring at the clouds that you walk into a wall.

The Future

"Every time I see an adult on a bicycle, I no longer despair for the future of the human race." H. G. Wells

A Moment of Clarity

At a cross roads the struggle is to cut through the expectations, the prestige, the trappings and decide what we actually want-especially if there are no bad options. We must specialize. No longer is there room for the Renaissance man, jack of all trades—shaping society, enmeshed in the questions of the age, the universal critic and philosopher holding a mirror up to the world. You check a box signing up for a career track, a 9 to 5— a life. Only a few get to break out of the box and the world looks at them askew, labeling—rebel, dropout, nonconformist—worrying that they will be disruptive, or worse, that their actions pass judgment on the masses.

Both choices are outside the mainstream. A Scholar, studying dead languages and ancient texts, so remote that in many cases the original has passed out of existence or an artist dreaming, drawing and creating, working to make a vision for the world—people laugh and shake their heads, “if only they were serious and did useful work. Which of these can be useful? Can shake society and let them know this is not a waste? Which can help me grow and stretch and fly? Both have their norms and rules and own little boxes. Where can I break out? Is it possible to be just me?

Either way, how does it help? How does one change the world? Are there merely two parallel paths, both of which have merit or is there a way? One burning path? Some people spark and blaze, with every word echoing through history? Can you choose that path? Is it something thrust upon you? Other ripple, the effects of small deeds subtly spread without our notice.

Which road is mine?

Cause You gotta be bigger, and be faster, and be stronger
if your gonna survive any longer
in this lifetime it better be the right time the first time
might be your last time
am I a failure if I got nothing to lose
No, I'm not a failure, I've got something to prove

Cause I've lost my innocence and I'm a stranger, A life changer
I'm a man thats not afraid of danger
I walk my own path, and blaze my own trail
because I'm not afraid to derail
I won't get in line or be a middle man
so fuck you I'll make my own plan
and I got respect and I dont neglect
the people that i really care to protect
am I a failure if I got nothing to lose
No, I'm not a failure, I've got something to prove